Very very very super super damn damn fucking fucking boring boring boring to the max max maxxxxxxxxx! im seriously lacking of sleep when i have all the time to sleeppppppppp! i slept at 3am plus last night, and woke up at 7am due to my cough. hate coughing la seriously! and this time i really cough so bad till i've got tears in my eyes lor. :-( but i got a feeling tt i'm gonna recover sooonnnnnnnn! woohoo! no more hearing of my mother's naggings, keep forcing me to drink cough syrup and see a doctor lor. and she dont even allow me to drink any cold drinksssssssssss! and when i got hm on friday night she know tt i went drinking coz i vomitted when i got hm in her toilet, then she nagged at me for the whole of sundayyyyyyyyy.

i want to recover mannnnnnzzzzz! then my lovely friends can listen to my singing again this weekend. HAHAHAHA!! last night, around 11pm plus, i was craving for campbell soup! coz i got a friend, who reminded me about campbell soup. and i did a very crazy thing and he says i very exaggerate.. i go yahoo and search for campbell website, to see if there's campbell delivery. hahahahahaha!! in the end i look at the pictures of the soup then i cannot stand it anymore. changed and quickly went to buy! if you know me, i will never ever go out at night ALONE to buy food. all thanks to someone for mentioning campbell soup manz, so he hafta acc me on the phone till i reach home safe and soundddd. wakakaka. in the end i bought 4 campbell soup back home! but my house shop and save damn lousy manz, no flavours one. no cream of mushroom and mushroom pottage!!! :-(

i got home, cooked one can of soup and drink very happily! yayyyy! then just now when i woke up at 7am, i washed up and cooked another can. LOL! no worries drinking campbell soup, coz the total fat is only 8.6g per serving!! wahahahaha. but now im going to eat again. :-( waiting for my breakfast noodlesssss, and chocolate ice blended. and my favourite is back, MARLBORO MENTOL! yayy!! no more ice blast anymore manz. my throat is almost recovered! but i dont wanna eat chocolates anymore. i want to diet to my dream weight and maintain! miss those days when i am fucking skinny lor :-( when everybody sees u they'll say u really fucking skinny left bones only. when u wear clothes u can feel tt u really damn damn skinny la!! no tummy at all lor. when i see my thighs i feel tt its very very small! when i press my arms there's no meat at all lor. :-( now friends say i got big thighs! always say me fat! :-( i want to diet backkkk laaaaaaa! but one thing i regret whn i diet last time WHICH ISSSSS.............. MY B***BS GOT SMALLER AND SMALLER AND NOW DONT WANT TO GROW!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! all my close frens shld know. sad lor i always complain to them. :-( but still, I WANT TO BE SKINNY LEHHHH. must jio alrdy lor. HAHAHAHAH! just one week once will do, who want to be my partner? AHAHAHAHA!!

i feel like sleeping now, but i dont want to sleep leh. later at night sure cant get to sleep, then more pimples will come out. and then my food is coming back alrdy lor. :-(

sometimes i miss the past.. :( when i have frens who treats me as their lil sisssy, whenever im drunk, no matter what time, just a phone call, they'll definately come down and send me back.. after so many times of troubling them, dirtying their car and things in e car, they still will come whn i need them.. altho everytime e way they talks to me is bad, but i know they truly cares.. seeing me so stupid and got hurt by guys, they'll not say nice words to me to cheer me up, instead, they scolds me, to make me learn. altho sometimes their words are so hurting, i don't get angry with them..(except sometimes really i cant stand it, LOL), when i always always always 'zhao geng', got fucking dead drunk till i dun even know what i was doing, but they're e one, who will nvr take advantage of me.. i think im really very very lucky to have them.. but now, coz e fact tt i got a bf alrdy, i dont really talk to them anymore. :-( everything changes now.. sometimes i juz miss the times when i got them as my close frens.. only when they're gone, then u think abt the past, and realise hw much they've done for u, bt u've never appreciated it.. think im really lucky to have them.. all the usual ppl.. whenever im w them, i will nt scared abt being drunk, nobody tc of me.. coz no matter hw dead drunk i am, nxt day i'll sure be slping soundly at my home.. they've seen everything bad abt me, and gone thru with me all. after times and times, i mia-ed, did not return their calls/smses, but aft everything, they still forgives me.. times tt i lied to them, everything la. they still forgives me n treats me as their gd fren.. whenever i m sad abt relationship problems, they'll sure give me advices.. they gives in to me alot. really veryvery thankful to them mannnn. im always selfish, tink for myself only, but they still lets me have my way.. frens are everywhere, but having these true frens are enough to me alrdy. :D

I was peipei's good gf yesterday! i didn't meet the usuals and stayed at home the wholeeeee SATURDAY! thank you thank you! hehehehehe! LOL! right now, waiting for peipei princess to end his dota game and play together. SO LONG SO LONGGGG!! i finally, GOT SOME VOICE NOW!! YESSSSSSSSSS!! soon i'll recover man! YAY YAY YAYYYYYYYYYY. then i can FINALLY eat my royce chocolateeeeee!!!

but i want DIET DIET DIET! i really gain weight dam fast lor. sigh sigh sighzzzz. but i am hungryyyzz nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!! AND PYYY IS SOOO LONGGGGGGGGGGGG!! ooo ok, he's done. BB!!! :D

Thursday, boyfriend rested at home. i headed to element at night, damn last minute decision. coz of my good friend, alicia. *CLAP* heheeee. normal day lor. nothing much. damn tired manz on the way home. sleep all the way in jy's car lor. powerrrrrrr. really sleep until damn shiok. hahahahh.

friday, woke up damn earlyyyyy manz. think i only had 3 hours of slp. dota-ed with bf, till in the afternoon went to prepare and look for him. misss my bffffffff!! haha. went out in the evening, to east coast to eat. mcspicyyyyyy! niceeeeee. suddenly had the craving for tt. but damn spicy lor. then slacked awhile, headed to bugis. slack awhile. walked around iluma, waiting for time to passsssssssssss. 10plus, headed to bq to look for sandy, wq and co.

happening lorrrrrr. atmosphere was good tt day. HAHA! damn funny lor. bf went back home due to some stuffs at 1am plussssssss. then i headed to find a friend of mine for awhileeeeeee. forgot whats e pub already lor. play 5-10 and dice, same. i still always lose! but i played shooting the darts for the first time! HAHA! damn tyco game lor. memory abit fail already, coz at this time abit tipsy alrdy. i tink is 3plus, went back to element. then had a conflict with a girl. i always tot im the most kp girl.. but i finally found someone, more kp than me. damn fucking very kp lah! really cant stand it.

after tt conflict bf brought me home first. and on e way home i also dont know why leh, suddenly damn tired. till i slept at bf's back when he's riding. LOL. bf say got a part he turned back to see me, then my whole body was juz slanting lor. LOL. i really dont know how i can slp lor. LOL. bf somemore tap my leg alot of times, but then i really got no memory of it mannnzzz. reached hm and i vomitted. damn er xinnnnnnnnnn. and in my memory, the vomit is black lor i dno why. LOL!! all is illusion i guess. HAHA! my eyes sure is playing tricks on me man..

dear has just went hm not long ago. gotta wait till next friday/saturday again. :-(

I slept so so sooo little the day before man. I slept at 3plus, and woke up at 6pm and cant get back to sleep. Waited waited for the time to pass, 12pm bombed alicia awake! i think i called 30+ calls. LOL ~ Prepared, wait for her to come over and cabbed to interview. Yea lor, cabbed there. :-( Then she wait for me, and we cabbed to Bugis....... find find find, find her heels. no heels. i bought nth too but i spent alot man. AND FIRST THING WHEN I REACH BUGIS JUNCTION IS BUY YAMI YOGHURTTTTTTTT <3>

then continue finding heels, then cabbed to fep. walked around, eat, and find heels again. walked to wisma, taka, find heels. AT THE END OF THE DAY, SHE DIDN'T BOUGHT ANY HEELS! we both didn't buy anything but we spent alot on dont know where lor omgggggggggg. BUT I BOUGHT, ROYCE CHOCOLATEEEEEEE! WOO WOO. walked back to her hse and i cabbed back home.

tiring dayyyyyyyy ~ lack of slp + legs damn pain. and i went home, eat afew of royce chocolate. THEN MY VOICE, BECOME LIKE GRANDMOTHER! alicia called me, she hear me voice, she was damn shocked lor. LOL! we only parted for less than 1 hr. then i started to call everybody ask them to listen to my voice. HAHA! no more little kiddie voice :p then i slp, and i wake up. i talk to my maid, i tot my voice SLIGHTLY recovered. so i go take more chocolate and eat, but now................ GG.com. i ask my bro help me turn on air con, he ask me dont talk. he say i not scared ppl angry. HAHAHAHA!

and i received my online dress looooooooooo! wee weet. but then why am i so shortttttttttt!! hate it lor, always get dress seems to be too big and fucking longgggggg! damn lazy to always go alterrr mannnnnnn. :-( when can i grow tallllerrrrrrr? let me reach 160cm i also happy la. GROW GROW GROWWWWWWW. bernice grow ok? grow tallllll. but nvm. no matter what i also still v happy. coz NO MATTER HOW SHORT I AM, STILL GOT PPL SHORTER THAN ME. KAILIN ~ HEHEHEHEE. THANKS! WAKAKAKA.

To limited ppl only.

I'm so bored bored bored. Stomach suddenly pain pain painnnnnnnn. :-( there's nobody to complain to mannnnnnnnn. interview tomorrow at 2.30pm, i'll go ok! I WILL GO HOR! everybody keep saying i wont go lor :-( wish me luckkkkkkkkkkk ~ i wanna start working lah. i want money money money. i wanna go shopping shopping shopping!! been a long time since i last shopped lor. i want new dresses, new heels, new bags new everything!

till now i ahvent even trim my eyebrowwwwwwwww. lazy lazy lazyyyyy. lazy is the best word to describe me :p heheheheeeeeeeeee. i keep coughing n coughing but i still keep drinking bubble tea and eating snacks. wakakaka. what a naughty girlllllllllllllll. im going to quit smoking sooonn!! hehehehe. bf, do u hear me?! IM GOING TO QUIT SMOKING OKAY. :P LOL. anybody want to quit? we can quit together! motivate each other! sandy, LET'S QUIT TOGETHER LEH! i think she wont one lor. tt time we said to quit scolding vulgarities together but i think she forgot about it already. :p what a bad bad girl. im intending to quit on bf's pop date, 30/12. hope sooooo.. but gonna be hard i guess, with all yr friends around u smoking and they'll sure TEMPT YOU!! but cigg's really burning a whole in my pocket :-( especially when i have no incomeeeeeeeeeee! WHY WHY WHY IS CIGG SOOO EXPENSIVE? and i just keep smoking at home only lor. last time a packet can last me for 2 days, but now only 1 day. :( i hate to keep asking my father for money lor, always and always and alwaysssssssssssss. i want to work la, i wanna earn my own moneyyyyyy and use my money to buy my own things!! i need to kick away my lazinesssssssssss!!

and im now happily waiting for an online dress to comeeeeeeeeee! wakakaka. wonder where we'll go this weekend mannnnnnnnnnn. will it be 12th element again? and im thinking to go over to alicia's place to stayover as my bro's friend's coming to stayover for 2 freaking months lor wtf. :-( but tt girl keep going out every night. sucha havoc girl mannnnnnnnnnn. im going to try to slp now aldy, if not tmr i cant wake up for my interview!! GOOD NIGHT EVERYBODYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY <3>

Sorry, is the only thing i can say to you. Im sorry to hurt you again, with my decision..

Thinking abt it, so hard to maintain a relationship.. I love sticking to my boyfriend like superglueeeeee, but i think there's no way i could maintain a relationship being so dependent on him..

I am a happy girl now, just finish eating my macdonald breakfast! Hotcakes with sausage + hashbrown + iced miloooooooooooooo! Whahaha. It's deliciousssssssssssssss! it was saturday and i didnt went out! clap clap clap clap clapppppp! i stayed at home sleeping instead, cause i was really damn tired lor. and wake up at 5am plussssssssssssss. slp same time w bf, wake up same time too. wahaha. but the only thing is we're not togetherrrrrrrrr > :(

anw friday, i did not trim my eyebrowwwwwwwww. all thanks to a girl called sandy. sigh. haha! they came to fetch me and like always once i got up the car they say me for taking so long :( then off-ed to vivooooooo, ate at marche. and i thought the spoon is broken lor. pai seh. HAHA! then went to bq and waited for dear and we both went to watch 2012 while the others went to 12th element first. we left before the movie ended. coz the movie is abit draggy, and wq, sandy, jy and his girl(?), and 2 of dear's ex camp mate came to find us. then we headed to 12 element. and got hm at 6. dear stayed over! bathed, washed up, slept at i think 7plus 8. and woke up at 11. all thx to my coughing. now im juz awaiting for next weekenddddddddddddddd! so so fast it's sunday today which means = book in dayyyyyyyyy. :( weekends passs so fastttt. im going to miss my bfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.

and anddddd, cough cough plz go awayyyyyyyyyy. hate to be coughingggg, so hard to sleep.

BOOK IN DAY AGAIN. :-( MISS YOU DEAR!

Today is finally a Fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! yeahhhhhhhhhh! I wanna watch 2012, i don't want watch jennifer's body anymore. I want to watch a new show called a christmas carol! The ratings is high, and it's 3D!! I want to watch 3d shows but all 3d shows are cartoons, and i dont like watching cartoons lor. I want watch that la!! i want to wear the specs. hehehehe.

That day i met j, z and co for prawninggggggggggg! first timer manzzzz. but i win j! wahahaha! okay la, not really. coz im not the one who caught the prawn. HAHAHAHA! but in the end we didn't eat the prawn also, just let them go. i wanna try eating the prawn leh! they says that the prawn is damn nice to eat lor, cause very freshhh. i wanna go prawning againnnnnnn! <3

and just now sandy and me had a chat, yea, i think i'm a very bad friend lor. LOL! i think sometimes im really too self centred + selfish. and she said one thing, really right. i really never treasure those that treats me good, those that really cares for me, those that are there for me thru' my darkest la! sighhhhhhhh. now i really thought back about it, i guess i really treat them damn cb. find them irritating at times, scold them etc. just when im bored then i'll think of them? somebody just slap me. LOL. but its ok, i already learnt from it aldy lah. too early to say yet? yup. but definitely, i'll treasure everyone who's around me now. :-) and one thing, im too childish. haha. this i know, im really childish lor. i only think about now, not the future. i dont plan ahead. aiya, so all these will be in 2009's resolution. i wanna change for e better! i'll be a better girllllll, better ladyyyyyyy, better womannnnnnn!

now, just wanna cherish those around me. all my friends, and my boyfriend! i dont wanna lose any of my friends anymore lah. and hopefully my boyfriend too! ^^ MUACKS!

Friday, went 6head to trim eyebrow first then headed to Westmall. Eat, wait for everybody etc, then went over to 12th Element.

Saturday, Jy and co. came over to fetch me first then met up with the rest and to 12th Element again. Boring saturday ~ Played dai dee with Sandy for four hours STRAIGHTS LOR. Without break really i swear i never bluff! HAHAHA!

And a fucking fucking fucking cb paiseh thing happen to me. WALAU, i swear at that moment i'm fucking damn pai seh la! Nb, i juz hope there's a hole for me to bury in. Fuck. I accidentally dropped the computer cpu, or dno what la, then the whole song stopped. Aiya, dont know how to explain. And all my VERY VERY VERY good friends, all juz make me DAMN PAISEH LA!!

Sunday was a damn fucking boring day. So in the night i decided to stayover at Sandy's place. Sigh, this girl don't know how to treat her guest lor. I damn tam jiak only. And actually today, which is monday, i actually WANTED to go to kallang to sign my employment letter then go start work at oub centre. But sigh, I DID NOT WENT IN THE END LAH! Walau walau. Seriously im so irresponsible. Hate myself man i always give in to my laziness fuck. I think i bombed more than 10 interviews lor seriously. LOL.

But from today onwards I WONT ANYMORE LA. HAHAHAHAHA. Everybody sure dont belive me lor. But i will prove them wrong. HMMPFH!

Phoebe is soooo naughty lor. I think i can't stand taking care of kids in the future, i'll kill them. HAHAHAHA. No la, juz for laugh. I'll definitely be a good mother. WAHAHAHA! :P Coz i LOVE LOVE LOVE KIDS MAN. So cute. But Phoebe, really naughty. :-( Their parents always teach her to beat me, and now she'll beat me on her own lor. Juz now i wanna slp, she just hit my leg only lor sigh. I fake cry, she laugh. She fake cry, i headache. HAHAHAHA. Not fun one lor like that.

Around evening headed to Westmall to have Sakae sushi! <3 I like sakae sushi, i love sakae sushi. I ate the most but im damn happy but i cant stand myself. Always eat so much and complain about being bloated after that ALWAYS. LOL. I think i really damn power at complaining.

Walked around, then back to Sandy's place. Slack slack, tired tired. Back home at 9pm plus. Back to my home sweet home ~ I don't know why, always once in a while, my appetite will be very big. I'll keep eating and eating. just wanna bite something. Mouth itchy. Then awhile later, i won't already. I won't have the urge to eat eat eat. Then i'll slim down abit, then after that my appetite become big again. Fuck, this cycles just keep repeating lor damn it. Why why, can anyone tell me why? Anyone got this problem? LOL. Hate it lah walau. When my appetite is big, i can juz take cab from my house to bpp just to get alot alot alot of finger foods, i think can add up to $20+, then take cab back home and enjoy eating. Maybe my mole got time limit one. Sometimes then will 'fa zhuo' its power, sometimes wont. Hahahaha.

So now i officially got no more job lor. And gonna continue job hunting again. This time i'll be serious i swear. By this weekend i'll get a JOB! TRUST ME!!

And i still want to say, IT'S ONLY MONDAY. DAMN ITTTTTTTTTTTTT. Still got a long way to gooooooooooo ~ Sianz man, we got so little time for each other only, and after getting a job i think it's gonna be much more lesser. But maybe that's better. I will never ever ever let myself depend on a guy too much anymore. Never ever let myself get used to having e guy beside me everytime anymore. I gotta be independent!

OMGGGGGGG. SCARED SCARED LA!!

Thanks for the really very very very biggggggg!! bear! Really very cute and big and nice to hug lor. Seriously fucking big la! LOL. I think really almost half of my size man. Wahahaha. Hopefully, this time everything turns out right! (L) Hehe. Love love loves!! 7th of every month will be a day to remember from nowwwwwww! Wahaha. Muacks! :P

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Yay yay yay! I'm so happy! Today's finally Thursday! And tomorrow is FRIDAY! YAY! Friday is FINALLY here. No work, no school, so look forward to Friday for what? Because weekend is the only day we're OUT! Heh heh. Can't wait for time to pass man. So so so boring lah! Can't wait to get my bear too! WAHAHAHAHA! :P

Anyway, Tuesday met Sandy to go to IMM. She bought the dvd Gossip Girls lor WTF. I cmf won't buy if it's me. Nb, she actually still wanna buy season 1 and 2. MEANS COST AROUND $100+. ZZZZ. Even though not my money BUT I VERY ANGRY. HAHAHAHAHAHA! After that we were at Popular for damn long la. And i damn hate her. She always FORCE me to say the korean f4 dont know who look like dao ming si lor. AND ALWAYS FORCE ME TO GO WATCH THE KOREAN F4. YUCKS! I don't like man! LOL! Walk walk then cab home lo ~

Just now went for a interview at Lot 1, Samsonite. Starting work DAMN FAST LAH! Just now i went for interview, the person told me to go to their main office tomorrow at 11am. And guess where's the main office? Kallang. :-( Sad lor. So DAMN FAR! I think tomorrow i'll take mrt until......... sigh. The thought of it really sucks. And the person actually asked me to start work immediatly after signing the thing. But in the end i finally told him i can only start work on Monday. Heh heh. I very hum ji one lor i actually don't dare to tell. Hehehehe.

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Anyway this two photos are from the 2 birthday celebraton! I love both of my cake. Sibei chio lor pink colour! Woohoo.

Yayyyyyyyy! New blog, new url. :D Yay yay yay. Last time my blog's url really so ugly man. Hate it lor. Finally this time i can create a new blog without the help of our dearest Alicia.

Every week's the same. Weekdays is rotting at home, weekends meeting the same old group of friends. Every week every week is the same. Bored bored bored! Last friday, i went to Night Safari. It's halloween! It's my first trip to Night Safari, but seriously nothing really special. Not really as fun as what i expected. And worse, it was raining that night. Alot of people too.

After night safari, hmm.. Oh yeah. We headed to go fetch Weiguang from his camp. And then the night was spent at 12th Element as usual. Drink and drank and back home at 6am as usual.

Saturday, it was Alicia's birthday celebration at Nana! Ok, when i reached she was already drunk. Lol. I went for a little while only, and cabbed to 12th Element to look for the usual. Back home at 5am plus i think.

Sunday everytime is at home one lor. Then wait till Friday again. Bored bored bored. Damn looking forward to this Saturday! <3>

Seriously, i really think i got a VERY bad past. Doing stupid things and etc. Worse is getting into a relationship with many guys. This is what a regretted the most. Guys mouth really power. But i've got myself to blame too. Sometimes think tt maybe i'm too stupid. Really trust people too fucking easily. I think kelvin's incident is something i should really learn. Now when i think back, i REALLY think tt i'm FUCKING STUPID. After the break up and stuffs, after all those fucking cb things he've said to me, I can still stupidly tell my friends, "I think he purposely say things until like tt one, coz he want me to forget him.", "Maybe he is really love me also leh? But he dont want me waste my time waiting for him?." LOL? Now i really think back, i really should laugh at myself. I don't even know why i said sucha stupid thing lor tt time. Wtf.

Really hope i'm those girls who's strong, who can face everything bravely. Those that are independent, those that won't because of dont have who make themself till so pathetic and miserable. Aiya. All in all, i just hate my past. Damn it. AND I WANT MY FRINGE TO GROW LONG PLZ. I TRIMMED IT TT DAY FUCK.