Sometimes i feel that actually everything is going on fine, quite okay, but i ruined it again by myself. I'm too sensitive. I'm too sticky to him. It's been so long, but it has never changed before. 2 years ago, i stick to him worse than superglue. One minute without him by my side, i'll go bonkers. I just love to stick to him. And now, it's still the same. Although i don't and i can't stick to him everyday anymore, but it's almost the same. Knowing that he hates me calling him umpteen times, i still did.. I don't know what the fuck i was doing also. But i hate myself for having this kinda behavior. I really made him fucking angry with me afew days ago and now we're getting more distant when we already are. Fucking hate it. I really ruined it myself man. I'm supposed to salvage this relationship but i'm making it worse. I hate myself, seriously. > :( Sigh!